Decisions…

Very recently I had a big decision to make:  stay at my current job, or accept a new job offer.

There were lots of factors involved and it wasn’t an easy decision.  In fact, it was downright difficult.

So I did what anyone would do.  I spent my lunch break reading through all of the inspirational quotes on my water glass trying to find the answer and figure out what I should do.  There’s good stuff on there.

In all seriousness, it was not easy.  I thought it would be – after all, I would be trading in a 75-minute commute for a 25-minute one.  I would be absolutely crazy to turn that down!

But for some reason, it was tough.  I like my job well enough but I’m not necessarily in love with it.  Why was this so hard?

After talking it through with my husband, I realized it was pride.  I feel like I’ve built a reputation here.  I have the respect of state-level administrators and I get calls seeking guidance from other people all across the state.  Leaving would mean giving that up.  Not feeling as important.  Not getting the same level of recognition.

That was an uncomfortable moment of self-awareness.  Can you say “shallow”?

Last week I had the privilege of writing a guest blog post where I talked about my calling.  I alluded to using my calling as a guide for decision-making and wanted to expand on that a little.

As a working mom I take so many things into consideration when weighing my options.

  • Money
  • Lifestyle
  • Reputation
  • Time Commitment
  • Expectations
  • Family Commitments & Needs
  • Fear
  • Doubt
  • Wanting to please others
  • Wanting to please myself by “feeling like” a “good mom”
  • Happiness
  • Feelings
  • Recognition

Of course, none of those things are unique to working mothers.  Everyone’s list may look a little different but…well, you get the point.

Though some of those things may ultimately come into play, it is important to ask the bigger questions.  Is this in line with my calling?  Is this serving God the way He wants me to?  Is this best for my family?

For me, the answer was clear after looking through that lens.  It is time for me to move on into a new adventure.  I have absolute confidence that it is time for a transition, and I am so excited!

My current supervisor said something so kind when I shared my struggle with her.  “Kristina, the good thing is that you are not running from this job.”  As I thought about it, it was true.  I wasn’t running blindly from a 2 ½ hour daily commute.  I wasn’t desperately trying to escape a job I didn’t like into something – anything – else.  I was running to something that I knew I was called to – the ability to serve my family better.  Trying to keep my mission and my calling at the forefront of my decision-making gave me the legs I needed to stand on to make the decision. 

Knowing that much gave me peace.

Besides, the messages on my water glass all seemed to agree.  So it must be the right decision.  🙂

Today’s post is part of “Works For Me Wednesdays,” tips to make your family’s life easier.  WFMW is hosted by Kristen at We Are THAT Family.

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2 thoughts on “Decisions…

  1. I have to comment about your desire for respect and ask you to stop beating yourself up as being “Shallow”. I believe it is a part of your God-Given talents/personality. Like all traits, there are good aspects ant bad aspects. The desire to be recognized as an expert can drive you to excellent performance.

    I recently lost my job and have been doing a lot of self inspecting and found a theory about personality traits (Gallup Strength Finders) that dovetails with the Management theories of what factors motivate different people. I am rewarded by Recognition. My Strength Finders report says I have strong drive for Significance. Of course I have found that this need in particular does give me trouble and is usually the source of angst everytime I get royally bent out of shape about something.

    I guess what I am trying to say is to embrace the portion of this personality trait that will drive you to quickly learn your new job and start excel. You have recognized this trait before is got you stuck and thus you resisted the dark side. Good Luck!

    1. Hi Maggie! Thanks for the response, I absolutely agree with you that respect/recognition are NOT bad things at all. I love the perspective that they help drive good performance, I hadn’t thought of that! I do think, though, that while recognition is a good thing it isn’t necessarily a basis for wise decision-making. For myself, anyway, it doesn’t bring anything additional to my family – which at this point in my life is my higher calling.

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